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1.This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
i sure hope so.

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
cociuba.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
actually, i was.

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
a few hours ago, with my best friend.

7. What are you excited for?
graduation.

8. What were you doing yesterday?
school + hanging out with my friends

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
a friend of mine.

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
a lollypop.

11. Have a best friend?
i sure do.

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
no.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
can't remember.

15. About what time is it right now?
9:30 pm.

16. What do you want right now?
an ice cream.

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
a group of friends.

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken?
between single and taken, somehow.

19. When was the last time you cried?
a week ago.

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
kind of.

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
no.

22. How fast does your mind change?
it depends on the situation.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now?
unfortunately, yes.

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
yes.

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
maybe because they don't know what they want.

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
the possible subjects for a test i have tomorrow.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
acing my final exams in high school.

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
yes.

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
a couple of hours ago.

30. When is your next road trip?
a few months later.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
yes, and he's my best friend.

32. How's your heart?
pretty good.

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
i guess we all do at some point.

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
i hope so.

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
eating and watching tv.

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
soon enough.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
yes.

38. Who do you not get along with?
some of my classmates.

39. what does your 4th recent text say?
'i just had a test, it was awesome. what are you doing, babe?'

40. What are you wearing right now?
trousers and a t-shirt.

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
definitely kinky.

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
i can't even remember.

43. What's your favorite girl and boy name right now?
beatrice / lucas.

44. How did you feel when you wake up?
well rested.

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
yes.

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
pretty often.

47. What were you doing last night at midnight?
watching criminal minds.

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
m a c.

49. Whose the first B in your contacts?
bia.

50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
today, a few hours ago.

51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
i'm sure i would.

52. Last awkward moment?
can't remember.

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
since i was a little child.

54. Do you have good vision?
no, i wear glasses.

55. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
not yet, but i want to.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
yes.

57. Are you Irish?
no.

58. Do you use chapstick?
no.

59. Do you have any scars?
yes, one.

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
i don't think so, not yet.

61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
no.

62. Name the last person to text you?
serbi.

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
if we were compatible.

64. Can you go in public looking like you do right now?
yes.

65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
no.

66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
i sleep in the middle of my bed.

67. What’s the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
smile.

68. What’s one huge pet peeve?
ignorance.

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yes.

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
yes.

71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
yes.

72. Song you're thinking of right now?
esmee denters feat. justin timberlake - love dealer.

73. Want someone back in your life?
yes.

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
maybe.

75. What sort of music do you listen to?
rock/pop.

esmee denters feat. justin timberlake - love dealer

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Let's go,
Baby I gotta have some more,
(Turn the track up)
What's it gonna take to get a score,
(Turn the beat up, yeah)
Got me like a fiend banging on your door,
(I think I want some of that)
Why don't you meet me on the floor?
And then?

Step into my office won't you try to sample, a taste of my stuff
(JT: yeah c'mon))
I've got a million different flavors all the boys say they can't get enough,
Once I'm under your skin you're begging me for more,
You'll get addicted to this but baby you've been more,
Don't let these innocent eyes fool you when I'm on the floor, the floor, the floor

Cause I could be your dealer,
I can be your only friend when you need her,
I'll keep you coming back again,
You can call me anytime I can make you feel fine,
Look into my bag of tricks if you need a fix,
Then I'm your dealer, Hey!
Love love dealer, Hey (check it out)

All those other pushers they say
They got that good stuff that you already know
(You already know what it is)
That they can't do what I do - oh no,
I'll take you places you never thought you'd go,
I can get you so high with the things I do,
You get a rush in your veins and we start to move,
Don't let these innocent eyes fool you when I'm on the floor, the floor, the floor,

Cause I could be your dealer,
I can be your only friend when you need her,
I'll keep you coming back again,
You can call me anytime I can make you feel fine,
Look into my bag of tricks if you need a fix,
Then I'm your dealer, Hey!
Love love dealer, Hey (check it out)

You can call me anytime I can make you feel fine,
Look into my bag of tricks if you need a fix,
Then I'm your dealer, Hey!
Love love dealer, Hey (check it out)

Break It Down

JT: Baby I gotta have some more,
ED: Eyes roll back and you feel dizzy,
JT: What's it gonna take to get a score,
ED: Now you got me in your system.
JT: Got me like a fiend banging on your door,
ED: So now you know what you've been missing,
JT:Why don't you meet me on the floor?
And then?

Break

You ain't gotta say that you like it,
I can tell by the look in your eyes,
Won't you give it a try, you'll be mine.

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nu voi scrie ce versuri m-au impresionat la aceasta piesa, deoarece love dealer este prima piesa pe care o public pe blog doar pentru ca imi place cum suna. ma bine dispune, e vesela, e... o piesa care imi place foarte mult. enjoy!

it's all about me

ME
my name is: mădălina.
this morning i was: well rested.
i'm afraid of: the darkness.
i dream about: publishing a book.

HAVE YOU EVER
pictured your crush naked?: more than once.
been in love: yes.
cried when someone died: yes.
lied: oh well, no. (see? i just lied again...)
fallen for your best friend?: shit happens...
rejected someone: i'm that evil.
cheated on someone: yes.
been cheated on: not as far as i know.
done something you regretted: i wish i could say no.
wanted to die: hell no!

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
what do you notice first?: the height.
last person you slow danced with: i don't slow dance.
worst question to ask: what was your name again?

WHO
makes you laugh the most?: my best friends.
makes you smile: my best friend.
gives you a funny feeling when you see them: my ex boyfriend.
is easier to talk to - boys or girls?: boys.

DO YOU EVER
sit on the internet waiting for someone special to IM you?: yeaaaaah...
save AIM conversations?: sometimes.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: never.
cry because of something someone has said: rarely, but i do.
pray?: no.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
you talked to on the phone: my best friend.
hugged: my best friend.
you instant messaged: a friend.
you laughed with: my best friends.

DO YOU
color your hair: yes.
ever get off the computer: of course.
habla espanol: un poquito.
sprechen sie deutsches: nein.
fight with your parents: sometimes.
have friends you've lost touch with: they're not called friends anymore.
feel happy?: yes.
wish you could fly away.. far, far away?: yes.
believe in God?: no.
could you live without the computer?: i don't think so.
what's your favorite candy?: green apple lollypop.
whats your favorite fruit?: green apple.
sunrise or sunset?: sunset.
what hurts the most - physical pain or emotional pain? emotional pain.
trust others way too easily?: that's my weakness...
are your fingers cold?: almost all the time.
coke or pepsi: nestea!

FINAL QUESTIONS
I want: to be a journalist.
I wish: to publish a book.
I love: my friends.
I miss: my little sister.
I fear: being alone in the darkness.
I hear: the tv.
I smell: strawberries.
I wonder: if people will read my books.

the last song

rules:
1. put your music player on random.
2. write down the first line of the first 20 songs that pop up.
3. divide the poem into stanzas.
4. the first line of the 21st song is the title.

disco dancing with the lights down low

nobody told me that i'd be in happy faces trying to erase the traces
i never knew, i never knew that everything was falling through
in your eyes i see you've been broken
open your eyes, 'cause another day is dawning.

take a look at my girlfriend, she's the only one i got
debbie just hit the wall, she never had it all
my little brother's in his bedroom smoking weed
when there's nowhere else to run, is there room for one more son?

ladies you're damn right, you can't read a man's mind
life is good i can't complain
you're the kind of friend who always bends when i'm broken
he treats me with respect, he says he loves me all the time.

you light the skies up above me
i make the most of all this stress
everytime our eyes meet this feeling inside me is almost more than i can take
your eyes tell me how you want me.

ghidează-mă acasă

m-ai găsit sângerând pe marginea drumului.

m-ai găsit scuipând moartea şi înecându-mă cu viaţa, lăsând realitatea să îşi arunce degetele violente înspre gâtul meu, ucigând rămăşiţele încrederii mele. m-ai găsit tremurând pe asfalt şi mişcând întreaga stradă, coloana mişcându-mi-se precum o carte veche. m-ai găsit ca fiind o victimă a propriei mele imaginaţii, dorinţele mele manipulându-mi nervii precum o vioară ce cântă doar la înmormântări. eram jumătate trează şi jumătate conştientă şi jumătate ceva ce nici nu pot numi; tu erai copleşit.

trei zile mai târziu, iar eu eram bandajată cu buze catifelate. gustam laptele speranţei tale vindecătoare şi mierea răbdării tale. am fost vindecată de buzele tale reci presate pe fruntea mea caldă, dar eram încă speriată. mă trezeam în sudori reci, dorindu-mi să alerg pe străzi întunecate. mă enervam când încercai să mă calmezi şi explodam la fiecare contact. am fost dezlegată de neîncrederea mea şi de propriul meu trecut. am luat bucăţile pe care tu tocmai le lipiseşi împreună şi le-am aruncat în aer; tu nu ai spus nimic, doar ai luat-o de la capăt.

cinci săruturi şi jumătate după asta, iar tu mă învăţai cum să pronunţ încredere. mă lăsai să îmi păstrez inima, deoarece nu eram pregătită să renunţ la ea atât de repede, dar o preţuiai la fel de mult. mă ţineai aproape şi mă menţineai întreagă şi ţineai demonii la distanţă. îmi spuneai lucruri pe care le consideram minciuni, precum "eşti frumoasă" şi "meriţi asta" până când repetarea a devenit un puls de care eram dependentă. mi-ai prins mâna zgâriată şi mi-ai sărutat pumnul rănit, mi-ai spus că nu trebuie să continui să mă lupt dacă nu vreau, dar tu erai destul de puternic încât să rezişti fiecărei lovituri pe care o aruncam de frică. îmi scăldam piciorul în ape liniştite; tu doar ai respirat adânc şi ai aşteptat.

astăzi m-am trezit şi ţi-am simţit respiraţia caldă pe gâtul meu. adevărurile tale erau scrijelite în limbi necunoscute pe inima mea. mi-am forţat sistemul nervos şi mi-am repornit încrederea în magie, când tu mi-ai cântat balade sub soarele primăverii. mi-ai mângâiat părul şi mi-ai descâlcit nodurile, mi-ai spus că sunt frumoasă chiar şi când sunt rănită, dar că preferai să mă vezi fericită. ai atins cu două degete cicatricea de pe spatele meu, ţi-ai lipit buzele de obrazul meu şi ai respirat trei cuvinte pe pielea mea: "sunt al tău."

tu eşti un far; sunt acasă.

so far, so... me?

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 4

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
() Slept With A Co-worker
() Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 6

Level 4
() Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart Friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 8

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
() Been in a Mosh Pit (what does this mean?)

SO FAR: 10

Level 6
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 14

Level 7
() Had A Tea Party
() Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 17

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 22

Level 9
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 24

Level 10
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
() Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 27

Level 11
(x) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
() Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 28

Level 12
() Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight <3

SO FAR : 30

Level 13
(x) Hated The Way You Look
() Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 34

Level 14
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
() Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 38

Level 15
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons/Colored Pencils/Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
() Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 42

Level 16
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
() Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 45

Level 17
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 49

Level 18
() Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Roller skating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 51

Level 19
(x) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
() Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 53

Level 20
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 55

Level 21
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
() Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
() Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 56

Level 22
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
() Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 59

Level 23
(x) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 60

Level 24
() Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 64

Level 25
() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
() Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
() Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 66

Level 26
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
() Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Some ones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House

SO FAR: 68

Level 27
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
() Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 72

Level 28

(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat (yuckk)
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 76

Level 29
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

SO FAR: 76

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so it turns out i did 76 out of the 100 most stupid/lame/funny/whatever things. but as i always stated, i'm no angel. so don't look surprised! :D
oh, and feel free to copy. :)

train - calling all angels

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I need a sign to let me know you're here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
'Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup

When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up

I need a sign to let me know you're here
'Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up

When children have to play inside so they don't disappear
And private eyes solve marriage lies cause we don't talk for years
And football teams are kissing queens and losing sight of having dreams
In a world where what we want is what we want until it's ours

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up
I won't give up if you dont give up

Calling all you angels

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am auzit aceasta piesa pentru prima oara pe coloana sonora a serialului one tree hill (pe care vi-l recomand). versurile m-au impresionat din prima clipa, mai ales din pricina faptului ca m-am regasit in ele si ca sunt extrem de adevarate si de autentice.
"am nevoie sa stiu ca lucrurile se vor imbunatati, deoarece simt ca noi ne inecam intr-o mare varsata dintr-o cana." nici nu mai tin minte de cate ori am vazut in jurul meu asta, sau de cate ori am facut-o chiar eu - sa fac 'din tantar armasar', cum spune vechiul proverb; sa fac ca dintr-o cana mica, un motiv, sa se verse un ocean de dezamagiri, de nemultumiri, de certuri.
"vreau un motiv pentru felul in care trebuie sa fie lucrurile, am nevoie de o mana care sa ma ajute sa imi formez putina incredere." da, si aici ma regasesc mereu... de foarte multe ori esuez in a avea incredere ca totul se va rezolva si va fi bine.
"intr-o lume in care ceea ce vrem e ceea ce vrem pana e al nostru." acesta este, probabil, cel mai adevarat, dar si cel mai trist vers al piesei. mereu in viata ne vom lupta pentru a avea ceea ce ne dorim, insa dupa ce vom avea acel ceva, nu ni se va mai parea la fel de interesant. de ce? din doua motive simple.
1. natura umana; omul e conceput pentru a se lupta sa ajunga acolo unde vrea, nimic nu ne este oferit pe tava. iar atunci cand obtinem ce ne dorim, cautam altceva pentru ce sa luptam. si asa ajungem sa neglijam ceea ce ne-am luptat sa obtinem.
2. atunci cand obtinem ceea ce ne dorim, avem ceva de pierdut. si, cand realizam asta, preferam sa ignoram acel ceva si sa pretindem ca nu il mai dorim, decat sa stim ca l-am pierdut.
avand in vedere cat am scris, nu mai trebuie sa spun si ca aceasta este una dintre piesele mele preferate si ca va recomand cu caldura sa o ascultati.

the seven things i hate about you

seven things that scare me:

1. darkness.
2. loneliness.
3. silence.
4. thunders.
5. hospitals.
6. bees.
7. blood.

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seven things i like the most:

1. mcfly.
2. one tree hill.
3. my friends.
4. myself.
5. my little sister.
6. writing.
7. reading.

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seven random facts about me:

1. i get bored easily.
2. i have bisexual tendencies.
3. i hate sleeping alone, that's why i have 2 stuffed toys in my bed.
4. i sing at the top of my lungs when i'm alone.
5. i sometimes sing on the street, if i'm sure that nobody can see me.
6. i love quotes; lyrics, movies, it doesn't matter.
7. i find it easier to forget an acquaitance that someone i love.

seven things i plan to do before i die:

1. publish a book.
2. get a tattoo.
3. visit paris, london, venice, rome, egipt and madrid.
4. bungee-jump.
5. be at a mcfly live concert.
6. be at a manchester united match on old trafford.
7. visit wilmington, the town where the filming set of one tree hill is located.

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seven things that attract me to the opposite sex:

1. green eyes.
2. black hair.
3. clothing style.
4. personality.
5. cleverness.
6. sense of humor.
7. good manners.

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seven things i say the most:

1. what the fuck?!
2. like.
3. uuuhm.
4. what the hell?
5. oh well.
6. hey.
7. no shit.

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seven celeb crushes:

1. cesc fabregas.
2. dougie poynter.
3. chad michael murray.
4. sean faris.
5. sophia bush.
6. adriana lima.
7. shemar moore.

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feel free to copy. :)

i tend to call this insanity art.

i am me.


i love you.


welcome to my life.


pocketful of sunshine.


near wild heaven.


goodbye, my childhood.


disfunctionally sane.


my eyes are green, i come from above now.


she moves in her own way.


when all your dreams are shattered, everything is beautiful.


i know that goodbye means nothing at all.


down by the lake.


i'm alone above the atmosphere.


down in the gutter.


smile like you mean it.


i'm not a girl, not yet a woman.


the killers.


a walk in the sun.


baby love.


some roads lead nowhere.


formula for love.


truth doesn't make a noise.


the tide that left and never came back.


find your way out.

lee ryan - stand up as people

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All I hear is voices in the crowd,
They only whisper though they frown
People saying oh it's such a shame
Still they only look to pass the blame

If we can find a way to work things out
The only way to start is to start now

Welcome to a better place, better place

When are we gonna stand up as people
Realize that as people we're all equal
We don't want no world war sequel
For the love of god think of the people
When are we gonna stand up as people
Realize that as people we're all equal
We don't want no world war sequel
For the love of god think of the people

Children always learn by what they see
So we gotta practice what we preach
Don't you know that's the game of life
That we abuse when we choose to fight

If we can find a way to work things out
The only way to start is to start now

When are we gonna stand up as people
Realize that as people we're all equal
We don't want no world war sequel
For the love of god think of the people
When are we gonna stand up as people
Realize that as people we're all equal
We don't want no world war sequel
For the love of god think of the people

I pray before I sleep at night
(I pray, I pray)
That I'll wake to find a clear blue sky

When are we gonna stand up as people
Realize that as people we're all equal
We don't want no world war sequel
For the love of god think of the people
When are we gonna stand up as people
Realize that as people we're all equal
We don't want no world war sequel
For the love of god think of the people

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aceasta este o piesa mai veche, insa mesajul sau este cat se poate de actual si de vizibil in realitatea lumii de astazi. parerea mea este ca lee ryan avea mai multa dreptate decat isi inchipuia cand a scris cuvintele "tot ce aud sunt voci din multime, sunt doar soapte, chiar daca lumea se incrunta. oamenii spun 'oh, e o rusine'; chiar si asa, ei doar cauta sa paseze vina." (prima strofa). puteti spune sincer ca asta nu e adevarat in ziua de azi? mi-ar placea ca raspunsul la aceasta intrebare sa fie pozitiv, insa ma tem ca vom mai avea putin de asteptat pana ca asta sa fie posibil.